Actress Kerry Washington reveals she contemplated suicide amid battle with eating disorder

American actress, Kerry Washington is opening up about her devastating ordeal with an eating disorder. 

In a sit-down interview with Robin Roberts for a 20/20 special, Washington revealed how she contemplated suicide at the height of her disorder and was “trying to destroy myself.” 

“I was good at control. I could party all night and drink and smoke and have sex and still show up and have good grades. I knew how to manage. I was so high functioning,” Washington told Good Morning America‘s Robin Roberts in an interview airing Sept. 24 on ABC.

 “And the food took me out. Like, the body dysmorphia, the body hatred, it was beyond my control and really led me to feeling like I need help from somebody and something bigger than me or I am in trouble, because I don’t know how to live with this.”

The 46-year-old continued, “I could feel how the abuse was a way to really hurt myself, as if I didn’t want to be here. Like, it scared me, that I could want to not be…